Friday, May 3, 2013
when blogging sucks
Oh hey blog, hey. It's been 5 years of writing-ish! I've been busy watching the entire series of Dawson's Creek during naptime and am already on season 2 of Felicity. (She just cut her hair crazy short! Nooooo!!!) Blogging has lost its' lustre and become such a chore! And I feel rude even saying that because I truly love bloggers in general and when I have the need to get nostalgic and/or pat myself on the back at how funny I think I am and read old posts, I go, why have I stopped blogging?! There's some funny stuff happening here! I have thoughts! And my kids are cute! Plus my husand is hilariously honest and I should post some of that too!
You know what?! That's mostly why I haven't been posting! I think of "Julie + Julia" and that line when she's arguing with her husband comes to mind. "But what do you think a blog is? It's me, me, me day after day. I thought it'd be fun. How stupid is that?!" Who wants to hear me highlight the super moments of the day?! That gives a false pretense and I don't want anyone to think we're farting rainbows over here 24/7. Or who wants to hear me vent about the lows? I've read posts like that and usually just want to eKick someone in the arse and tell them to build a bridge and get over it. Insensitive? I'm just being Miley. I mean, Jessica. Either way, it's almost always pretty self-centered.
Then there's Pinterest. It is fantastic and all together terrible for so many reasons. For myself, it feels kind of like high school. She's so popular and her posts are all over The Pinterest! She lives such a glamorous life! Her blog has incredible DIY/recipes/fancy photos/incredible writing/fashion/blog design/everything and anything I say or do is total crap! Nonsense! This is not why I do this! Amen? The comparison thoughts are such a poison, like women don't have enough to balance and figure out?! For this reason I wish I was Amish. But even then I'm sure I'd be comparing my quilting squares or inability to kill + pluck a chicken for dinner.
I'm learning to let all that junk go and JUST BE ME! And let THEM BE THEM! I'm going to blog again because I like blogging! I like having a journal and scrapbook of liiiiiiiife! It's all good stuff! Even the stuff that's not good. It's what makes us human and makes us relate and makes us go, Oh! You get it! You're not perfect and I get that! Isn't it refreshing to be okay with who we are just as we are instead of comparing and striving to be someone that we just aren't?! My story doesn't have to be your story and we can rejoice in that and love and build up each other in that!
There is so much freedom in learning to love unconditionally! And this includes loving ourselves unconditionally! I don't mean, like, treat yo self and be a diva, but embrace YOU! God made you who you are and has put you through the things you have been through to be authentically YOU. No one wants to read a story about perfect, perfect, perfect. That would be a super boring book to read. It's the unpredictable, the incredible joy, the unexpected sorrow, the struggle, the mundane details that are always important, the determination, the relationships and so on that tell our story!
Let's tell our authentic story well, yes? We may never know the heart-prints it might leave.